Chasing my dreams

When you try so hard to be strong but it isn’t working. On the outside you put on a brave face but you’re tearing yourself to pieces from the inside out. Every ounce of faith you last held has been lost. The hand of which you once found comfort in has pulled away. Feelings erupt inside and yet you have nowhere to express your anger. You ask yourself over and over what you did wrong. If you had to give up everything you own to rewind time and go back to how things were. You would. You want to be there for them, but without the love it feels like you’re being used. Nothing makes sense anymore. You thought this was the person you would live the rest of your life beside. You.have the urge to hear his voice one more time; see him. You can’t let go. Rome. The desert nights. The days spent together. You found the man of your dreams. You’re not his girl.

They say that new beginning can bring many opportunities, but never would I have envisioned on my first day of secondary school, that I would have achieved all that I have, to date.

 So Friday bought the end of a new beginning and opened the doors to another. Seven years surrounded by amazing friends, passionate teachers and an atmosphere of which I shall never forget. I have much to owe to a school that has allowed me to develop and discover myself as the years have gone by.

 The end has now been marked and passed. All I have now are the memories of some of the  happiest days of my life and some incredible friends of whom I hope to keep contact with for a long time to come. Without these people I wouldn’t be who I am today. There may have been ups and downs, but we battled through together and I am proud to say that I have come out a fighter.

 I still remember that first day in Year 7 when I stepped foot upon the school grounds for the first time. Knowing I would be there from aged 11-18. It seemed like a long time back then, but the years have surely flown by.

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You’re nothing but walking bones anymore. The emptiness is burning you to death from the inside out. Every decision is like deciding whether to decapitate yourself or your best friend. Doubt swarms every inch of life and you have no where to turn.

 The screaming begins as a whisper and echoes in the back of your mind until alarm bells begin to ring and every thought of yours is drowned out. You have confined yourself to a room to try and forget the world. You can’t recognise yourself.

Peace comes to those who are patient they say. Years and year I have waited; how much longer?! A voice on the other end of the line telling you everything will be okay won’t come. You scratch and taunt yourself before the mirror. You’re worthless.

You begin to realise that what you’re experiencing now is what you wish you had all those times before. Yet you’re grounded below ice and the chances that life brings are now out of reach.

You cry for help and no one comes. The silence breaks you.

kshazzy:

PTI came out of nowhere and is now the second largest political party in Pakistan with the second most seats in assembly(according to the unofficial results till now)

This is a proud moment for all of PTI supporters.

Fight the light even in the darkest times.

hadhafang:

If you think Punjab chose Nawaz Sharif/PML then I’m here to tell you that you’re wrong.

If you think these elections were fair, then you’re wrong.

If you think this isn’t a tragedy, then you’re wrong.

But remember this, the night is darkest just before the sunrise.